A-lister Gu Wan: a small borrowed flat after the late night on set

【Fiction. All characters are adults.】

By morning the comments would have a building number and a theory about a narrow bed. Management would answer in one breath: stop spreading an address, private rest, we will not finish your plot for you. None of that had been posted yet. At midnight Gu Wan only had a key a friend had left in the production car, and a partner who would not pull her through the door. She is thirty-four. Xu Nian, who designs sets and is not her subordinate, is thirty-six. They had worked the same late night. The offer was plain. If you do not want the hotel, there is a quiet place to sit.

She took the wig off as soon as she was inside. Without it she looked like a person whose shift was over, which is a different face from the one a thread likes to draw. Xu Nian stayed in the entry. The key is here, he said. You can tell me to leave.

I am not telling you to leave, she said. I want you to stay. Do you want to.

He said yes. They did not start tonight. Tonight still had to be asked.

If I only want to lean on you for ten minutes, she asked, is that all right.

He said yes. We can also stop. If you say stop, I go to the living room. If I am tired, I will say that too.

The borrowed flat was warm, and the curtains belonged to whoever had stayed there last. She shut the window because the night wind was hard, not because she owed the street a show. They sat on the edge of the bed. It really was not wide. She set her forehead on his shoulder, evened her breath, and asked if his hand might rest on her back. He said yes. A kiss, she asked. If you want it, he said, yes. I want it, she said.

After the kiss she paused. Can we still stop. He said yes. If you say stop now, I stop. She thought, and then she said not yet. A little longer. If I shake my head, you let go.

The quiet after that does not go on stage. The bed is narrow. Narrow does not mean it was offered to an audience. They keep their voices by the pillow. The city honks somewhere far off. In the room there are two adults, and both have said they are willing.

The quiet after the kiss stayed in the room. The bed was narrow because the friend’s flat was small, not because anyone had offered it to a headline. Gu Wan’s forehead was still on his shoulder. The cloth there had gone cool from the night air and then warm again where her skin met it. A horn sounded far off, on some other street. They did not send their voices to the door. The lamp was warm. The curtains had belonged to the last person who stayed, and the hem had faded. What came closer than a kiss stayed under that lamp. It did not leave with them.

In the morning she put the wig back on and practiced a smile that had nothing to do with the night. Xu Nian boiled noodles in the small kitchen. Steam lifted off the pot before the noodles loosened. Halfway through she said the internet was probably drawing a floor plan. He set his chopsticks on the bowl and said they could draw. The plan was false. The sentences from last night were real.

Heat from the noodles touched the window and left a small cloud on the glass. Gu Wan wiped a line through it with her knuckle and saw a dark coat drying across the way, not a building number. She wiped the line shut again. Xu Nian set the lid on the pot and said the street could invent as many floors as it liked. The water in the pot was only enough for two bowls. She laughed once, then read the four words she would send her agent and made sure she had not added a fifth.

From the car she sent those four words: do not explain. The agent sent back a period. The longer a statement, the more the story sounds like someone else wrote it. She set the phone face-down on the seat. The car still held the smell of makeup and the dry edge of the envelope.

Morning in the borrowed flat was quieter than the comments. Gu Wan put the key back in the envelope and took it out again. The flap took a crease from her thumb. She had not decided whether to return it. Xu Nian washed the bowls. The water was quiet. He said the key could go back, or it could be borrowed for one more night. Do not decide while the thread is loudest. They had both watched a rumor swell at noon and go flat by evening.

She sat and pushed the noodle bowl aside. A little heat was left in the bottom. She was not afraid of narrow. She was afraid of people using narrow to imply she had been indecent. The bed was narrow because a friend’s flat was small. The room held two people because she had invited only him. Both of those facts could survive a question. What could not survive was a route someone else drew for them.

He dried his hands and sat across from her. His hands stayed on his own knees. He said he would ask something new. Did she still want to see him in the daytime. Only a meal, or only a walk. She wanted that. They could end at the gate of the compound. If being recognised cost him more than she thought, he could end it too. She would not write his work down as an attachment to hers. Either of them could stop, and stopping would not be a penalty and would not owe anyone a speech. Neither of them directs the other.

He designs sets. His name can sit on a call sheet and does not need to sit in her statement. She nodded. They really did walk only as far as the gate. The sun was large. The metal of the gate was bright. She said, we end here. He heard it. If they still wanted the key that night, they would ask. If they did not, the envelope would stay in the car for the friend.

By afternoon the thread had changed the building number. The precise number from the morning had become a different one. Gu Wan did not forward the comparison. She sent Xu Nian one line: another false address. What was real was still the talk from last night.

The envelope sat in the production car all afternoon. Between rehearsals she wrote: the key is still here. I have not returned it. He answered: then tonight we still ask. If you are tired, we do not meet. Not meeting is a complete answer. She read that and straightened the wig. The sentence was more useful than any statement.

In the evening they came to the small flat again. Before the door he stood outside the mat. Coming in was a new step. She asked whether he wanted to come through. He wanted to. She opened the door. The light was brighter than the car. She asked whether twenty minutes of sitting was what he wanted tonight. He wanted the twenty minutes. If she wanted longer when the time was up, she would say so. He would not stretch it with silence.

In those twenty minutes they talked about the next blocking and about the false building number from noon. Her hand came near his on the table. She asked if she might touch it. He said, if you want that, touch it. She wanted it. Their fingers met, warm and brief. When her watch reached the mark she said the twenty minutes were enough. They washed two cups, turned the lamp down, and put the key back in the envelope. The narrow bed stayed where it was. It was a piece of furniture. It did not have to become a headline.

The next late night was the one they had already named. Xu Nian designs sets. Gu Wan is an actress. Neither of them directs the other, and neither pays the other. A name on a call sheet and a line in her statement are two different things. The key was still in the envelope in the production car. Before they touched the door she asked whether he wanted to use it tonight. He wanted to, and only if she wanted it too. If the work had worn her out, they could return the envelope tonight. That would still be a complete answer.

She said she wanted the flat. I am willing. Are you.

He wanted to stay.

At the door he stopped on the mat. She had already asked about coming in. Come in, she said. The light is better inside. He followed her and did not make her ask the same question again. The narrow bed stood against the wall. It was still a place to sit, not a headline. She took the wig off and became a person whose shift was over. Halfway through taking the makeup off, the person in the mirror was quieter than a poster.

She asked if they might sit closer. He wanted to sit closer. A chair leg sounded once on the floor. After she sat she asked if his hand might rest on her back. He said, if you want that, let it rest. She wanted it. His palm stayed on the cloth of her shirt and did not travel. The kiss was her idea. I want to kiss you, she said. He bent his head. The kiss was short. She said, pause. He drew his hand back. She drank water. The rim of the cup was cool. She said the pause was so she could hear herself, not so she could test him again. She still wanted to lean. So did he.

They talked about the false building number, which had changed again. She did not forward the comparison. He said the plan outside was false and the two people inside were real. Gu Wan is thirty-four. The room did not need that said again for anyone else. They had named twenty minutes. The second hand on her watch was plain about it. When the mark arrived she looked once and said the time was enough. He did not stretch the minutes with silence. They washed two cups. There would be no receipt for the room, because the room was not on an account. There was only a pot of water that had gone empty.

In the morning the friend who owned the flat asked for the key back, with no story attached. Gu Wan put it in the envelope and pressed the crease flat. Xu Nian did not argue for another night. She asked if he minded that the room was over. He did not mind. A room can end. She said they could stop at the car. He walked with her that far and stopped. Neither of them wrote an address into a message. What they kept was the habit of asking at the door.

In the car she asked once, and the question was about the next night, not a retest of this one. If she only wanted the envelope left on the seat before the next shoot, did that count as an ending. He said it counted. Ending before the door was as clear as ending inside. He did not need a narrow room to prove he wanted her. She did not owe the crew an address. She pressed the envelope flat and said tonight’s yes was used up. If they still wanted tomorrow, they would ask. He said he would wait for that sentence. He would not open the door first, and he would not rush her.

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