Last night of the team trip: she slides the key into my pocket

【Fictional adult story. All adults.】

The room key was still cold in my pocket when the sea wind reached the eighth-floor corridor, and she had already said I could give it back.

She is thirty-two and I am twenty-nine, the same job level at the same company, and neither of us reports to the other. It was the last night of the team trip. At dinner the cups had held tea, and later they held water. When the others went off to sing, she walked beside me and did not take my arm. At the eighth floor she slid the key into my pocket and pulled her hand back at once.

You can give it back now, she said. Or you can come up. Coming up is not an order.

I stopped outside the elevator. The corridor lamps came on in sections, one stretch of carpet and then the next. Let me hear the rest first, I said.

We stood by the fire extinguisher. Neither of us leaned on the case. The hose inside the cabinet stayed coiled, and the sea wind moved a loose corner of the notice taped beside it. She wanted me to come up. If I did not, the key went back to her hand, and on the bus tomorrow we would only nod. Monday's schedule would stay Monday's schedule. Nothing in that corridor was going to rewrite a meeting that had already been printed.

I told her I wanted to come up. The want was mine. It was not the trip, and it was not the metal already warming in my pocket.

She looked at me, steady. Are you sure? Not to be polite. Not because a door happens to be down the hall.

I am sure, I said. You can still take the key back.

Then we go slowly, she said. If either of us says stop, we stop, and there is no penalty. The night ends where the word lands. The schedule does not move.

All right.

She took the badge off her neck and dropped it into her bag before we walked. A badge in the room would make this feel like a meeting, she said. The carpet took our footsteps. Salt air came in where a window at the end of the hall had been left on a latch. At the door a line of bedside light already crossed the gap. She asked once, and she asked it plain. Do you want to come in, and do you want me to stay?

Yes. I want to come in. I want you to stay.

Only then did she use the card. The lock gave a small click. The room had the bedside lamp and the sea, and nothing else switched on. You could not see people on the water. You could see the lamp broken into pieces across it. She sat on the sill. The paint there was cool. She asked if she might kiss me and set a hand at my waist.

Yes.

The kiss was brief. Her hand stayed where I could feel the weight of it, and no farther than that. What followed stayed with the lamp and the wind off the water. We kept our voices out of the corridor. I will not set the rest of it down. When she had had enough, she was the one who ended it.

Stop.

I stopped when she did. She set her forehead against my shoulder until her breath evened, and the sill kept a line of cold along my wrist where it had rested.

I will not write this night down as leftover fun from a team trip, she said. Leftover fun sounds like a way to refuse the choice. I am here because I nodded. You are here because you nodded. The lamp is on so both of those nods can be seen.

I see them, I said.

In the morning the key was on the table, and beside it one small line: don't see me off. On Monday we are coworkers.

I read the line twice and did not photograph it. The sea was pale and already farther away than it had been at night. At the door she stopped with her bag on her shoulder and the badge still inside it. Do you regret it?

People who regret do not leave the key on the table until morning.

She laughed once, short. Do not sit beside me on the bus, she said. Not to hide. To leave the night in the room. If you are still willing, send a period before next Monday. If you do not, I will take it that you gave the key back.

On the bus I sat in the back. She sat by a window near the front. The road left the coast in a long curve, and the cups in the seat pockets were empty. At the rest stop we nodded the way two people nod after a meeting. The sea was already gone. I sent nothing that day. The period had to wait until wanting to see her had come apart from the schedule.

I folded her note into an inside pocket. On Wednesday night I deleted the sentence I had almost sent and left a single point. She sent a point back. Two marks, and nothing that could be read aloud in an office.

On Thursday she named a hotel that was not the one by the sea, on a different floor. At the door she would hear me once more, and I could refuse without owing her a reason. We were still the same job level. Neither of us writes the other into a review.

I answered that I was still willing, and that she could send me away at the door.

The lamp was already on inside when I arrived. She asked whether I wanted to come in and stay the night. I said that I did. Only then did she open the door the rest of the way. Bedside lamp. Sill. This time the window showed a quiet street, a pharmacy sign, a bus that was not ours. She left the badge in her bag and did not take it out. If regret arrives, she said, we stop.

I do not regret it now, I said. When it is time to stop, I will say so.

The second night was quieter than the first. What remained was breath, and the fact that no one turned the lamp off. The street below changed from blue to a duller dark. When it ended she straightened her collar and used my name, not the hurried surname on a badge. Do you want to sit across from me at next week's meeting?

Yes. Sitting across is work. Work is not something we trade for tonight.

Right, she said. The meeting talks about the schedule. When the schedule is done, we go back to our own desks.

Near morning I went down first. She did not walk me to the street. A street would have turned two people into a distance that needed an explanation. I looked back once. The lamp in the window was already out. My pocket held no key and no badge.

On Monday she sat across from me. The projector was on. We finished what had to be finished, and the notes on the whiteboard were only dates. When the room emptied she passed my chair, and her knuckle touched the edge of the table, light enough to have been an accident. I did not follow her out. The meeting-room lamp stayed on. It had nothing to do with us.

That evening she sent one word: here. I sent: here. Same level still means same level. The meeting-room lamp was already off. We left the next yes for the next doorway.

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